I can’t tell you how many times I have to repeat this to myself on a daily basis. I have to constantly remind myself, “Just be patient sis, your time is coming and you know it’s not going to just happen overnight.” I think that we are always so eager to reach the finish line, before we even start the race, that we lose sight of the importance of the journey. We don’t really take the time to allow ourselves to enjoy the process and know that every step that we take is a lesson learned and we are closer to reaching our goals.
One thing that I am personally working on is patience. I have to realize that it takes time to reach our goals and instead of rushing the process, I should utilize that time to grow and learn more about myself and the goal that I’m trying to reach. You know, we never really give ourselves a chance to enjoy the road to success because we’re so busy just trying to get to the top without even stopping to smell the roses a little. Learning to embrace life, your mistakes and your faults is just another stepping stone you take as you continue to grow.
What are you currently focused on and what steps are you taking to achieve that goal?
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So I woke up this morning down and out and at my worst. I was just so depressed and I didn’t know what to do. I tried so hard to keep from crying and breaking down and I was trying to think of other things besides negative thoughts. So I decided to take a shower, thinking it would make me feel better. It didn’t. In fact, it made matters worse and I decided to let it all out and I cried like a baby. I cried so hard I didn’t breathe or say anything for at least 45 seconds. Yea, it was that serious. I don’t even know what came over me but I knew I had to let it all out before I really did something crazy. I cried and I prayed to God. I asked, no I begged him to show me the way, to help me figure out my purpose in life. I just felt like such a failure and it seemed like things were not going to get any better. I never thought I would feel this way about life and actually wanting to end it.
After praying and crying hysterically for about 5 minutes, I tried to pull myself together and finally got out the shower. I checked my phone and saw that I had received message from my sister on Facebook that was very motivating and made me smile and feel a little better. I finished getting ready and then I received a call from a really good friend of mine who simply just called because they missed me and wanted to hear my voice . Mind you, no one knew how I was feeling or what I was going through so for my sister to message me and my friend to call me out the blue to tell me that, made my day and I didn’t feel so down anymore. I realized I actually had something to live for. I thought about my mom and my family and how this selfish decision would change everything. It was in that moment that I realized my life mattered.
I truly believe in God and I know he heard me and sent his Angels to brighten my day and comfort me during this time. I prayed some more and thanked God for strength and guidance. I won’t allow myself lose sight of my purpose or forget his grace and mercy and I know he will always see me through.